Problems
I love solving problems. It's a blessing and a curse. Once I get started on something, I can't stop. My mind is always turning, trying to figure out how to fix it.
Lately there seems to be so many problems that I want to fix. I have a hard time deciding which ones to focus on and dig into because another will pop up that seems more urgent.
While I do often make small contributions to the problems out there, they often seem dwarfed by the monumental problems our world faces. I have kids that will have to grow up in this world, and the more I think about that, the harder time I have deciding what I should do with my life. I want to make a difference for not only my kids but for those who need it.
Then again, I think of this quote
Saruman believes it is only great power that can hold evil in check, but that is not what I have found. It is the small everyday deeds of ordinary folk that keep the darkness at bay. Small acts of kindness and love. Why Bilbo Baggins? Perhaps because I am afraid, and he gives me courage.
I will admit this isn't from Tolkien but rather Peter Jackson, yet I still believe it to be true.
Sometimes the best thing you can do in the darkest of times is be a good dad, play catch with your son, and tell them you love them.
That's the most important part. We start there, then slowly start solving the bigger problems.